i think i can rate myself as the most stupid person in the world today..i should have seen it coming..i have been very careful for the past weeks, i knew minor conflicts would trigger an explosion and yet i wasn't careful enough..no one to blame..maybe i'm just not good enough..i thought i've learnt from the passed lessons where i didn't really know what to do and what not to do..i've tried my best to stop questioning and just be supportive at all times but what i've done this morning was something i should not have done..maybe i was too eager to win. that's me..always refuse to admit loss..i'm not going to defend myself..i don't want to trigger another endless cold war..everyone knows how much i love her and to what extend i can do things for her..i really don't want just because of small matter like this then our relationships become bad again..i rather let her cool down..
skipped dinner earlier for two reason. Firstly it was because i am still full after today's bak kut teh lunch..and of course the second reason, everyone would've been able to guess..i really have no appetite at all..thought of coming home and go to bed straight but my stupid engine refuse to let me sleep..that really compile more on my misery..dear GOD, please let all this be over as soon as possible k? I don't want to lose her just because of this..:(
-soul-less Kelvin
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